Thursday, October 27, 2011

IM BACK !!!!!!!!!! An emotional day ~



Today is a quite emotional day for me.....
i dunno what hit me...
but tears drop down....
were randomly click in da last day of khuntoria we are married episode just now cuz i feel curious and wanted to watch it...
and......
here start all the emotional feelings.....

6 months ago......
i woke up in the morning...
having a normal mood and went to collage...
cuz i know that there are nothing special for me to be excited about...
its a normal school day..normal school life...
everyone is alone back then...

But......
6 months after.....
things change...

i woke up every morning full of excitement and energy.....
wanted to went to collage as soon as possible...
cuz i know someone important there is waiting for me....
every night before i sleep...
i pray that every morning i woke up i can see all of my beloved friends in collage....
sometimes after school....
i randomly took out da calender and count that how many days left for us to be together...
i know this days would come...
but....is too fast....
im still not ready yet....

Imagine every morning i open my eyes...
goes to school..
but they are not there anymore..
it hurts real bad when i think of this...
my mummy and my aunty...
i have get used to it to see them every weekdays from morning till evening...
gets lots and lots of hugs, pinching and loves from everyone of them every moment....
but once graduate....
everything will be gone....
no more seeing each other everyday....
no more crazy moments together....
maybe we can only meet once a while or maybe not at all...
i dunno...

I always thinks that i am strong enough to handle goodbyes..
cuz primary and secondary goodbyes doesn't comes so strong...
it hurts but it ended happily...
this time....
its really hard for me to do it.....
its like a sharp arrow poke through my heart when we are counting down the days...
there are so much so so much we have been through together...
words cant describe.....
they have mean so much to me that no one can even imagine.....
even myself...
this time....this year..its has really hit da spot....





































 



















































im not scared~
im just........不舍得